i smile as i watched you from far

what a great amath paper 1 i had. so great that i gave up trying for the last few minutes and instead counting how many marks i lost. looking at the clock ticking away, i feel restless not panic. i can't even prove a god damn trigo equation, i don't know what the hell is a singular matrix, i completely gave up on a log question, i had no god damn idea how to draw a linear law graph. basically, i crapped through the whole paper and was murmuring to myself throughout. i ended up either gussing or half complete my paper. and that was my amath paper 1. 80 marks. great isn't it? i feel so lethargic right now, i don't feel like carrying on for ehist. it's really the most energy-demanding eoy i had ever come across.

i need a boom charger now

hello. flunked chinese. aircon nearly killed me. i'm running out of battery. my brain doesn't want to cooperate with me. this is the worst eoy i ever had. but after all these ranting, i'll still be back to study. this is life, i guess.

everyone seemed to be stressed out. demoralised by papers like bio. no doubt, i'm stress-ed out too. trying to maintain a positive mindset, but what's knocking me out mentally in a god damn headache. oh pls go away. i don't want to pop panadol at all. i have yet to memorize my humans. healthcare just doesn't go into my head no matter how long i stare at it. ehist is simply pathetic. i'm gonna die in human geog. there's no time for physics. too many worries, i can't seem to shake them away. isn't a good sign eh? i need some chill out.

don't you doubt what i've been dreaming

hello. el papers are okay today. wrote compo on fame! did it before, but i wrote in expository format. haha. paper 2 was O.O got stunned at the first question. now i know that waning = declining. LOL. oh well, at least my wild guess was right (: felt like sleeping during the 2nd paper. the aircon temperature was just condusive for sleep. paper 1 was too cold so i ended up shivering in my jacket. haha. 2 down! 10 more days to end of eoy. can't believe this actually marks the end of my sec 3 life. i'm still probably, in my own world i guess. in the midst of studying chinese. pray that it will be an easy paper tmr =/ got to study! lucks to everyone :D

give your best shot

OH GAWD. it's a day from eoy! time flies eh. haven't started on proposal revision. shall start later. been mugging ss for the whole day, except for maybe chem, due to tuition. almost fell asleep during chem just now. probably too tired. heck caring for commenting on chi att vids. slept a lot today. i ended up turning off my alarm and going back to sleep in the afternoon. oh well, at least i didn't regret the sleep i got. i want eoy to pass asap! goh. okay, i'm gonna have an early night today. wish me luck! oh and i'm still dying in human geog. =/ my brain just won't abosorb the facts the way i want it to.

one after another

HI. i'm dying in ss right now. i don't understand why resettlement policy cannot be accepted as one of the factors under the result of conflict between the singhalese and tamils. i'm tired. but no, 2 more weeks and all these would be over. hang on a little longer.

how i wish i can do that.

don't ever look back

oh well, i know i'm supposed to be studying but i feel like sleeping the moment i see human geog. you can't blame me for that, i'm still trying to figure out all the benefits and limitations for blue and green revolution. =/ done with GM food! but for the rest of chapter on geog of food... forget it. shall mug intensively after this. been attempting lorms questions. seems to be helping me to memorize. can't believe that exams are starting in 2 days time. WOW isn't it. but i want eoys to be over quick quick. i can foresee all the fun i'll be having! well, the only exception is olevel physics spa. guess what? that is included as one of our post exam activties! pathetic -.- but i can see that i'll be real busy after eoys too. having intensive due to syf i guess. time pass really fast. but somehow, i seem to enjoy it. oh webcam-ed with yijie, justin, eunice and marcus at 1am plus this morning! haha. and thus i only woke up at 10am. LOL. oh well, i got to get going. MUG OH MUG.

the only exception

When I was younger

I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm

Content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream
Ohh---
You, are, the only exception

think, rethink.

hello. can't resist the temptation and i decided to watch glee 2! xD been mugging and on the comp since i'm awake. well, i guess that's my children's day! HAHA. well, in technical form, study day okay. can't wait for eoys to be over. i can see all the fun i'll be having once again! :D but meanwhile, MUG ON!

perspective.vision.choices

The day you believe you've reached your fullest potential is the day you haven't... because you still have today.

The only limits you have are the limits you put on yourself.

-Nick Vujicic

maybe if my heart stopped beating

hello world. life's pretty good. "exams are not that important. being happy is the most important thing in life" - art rep. makes sense! hence, i kept telling myself that, call it self-denial. but oh well, it seems like i'm absorbing my facts much better than i kept recalling how many days more to eoy. shall try my best. whatever the result might be is not important anymore i guess. because at least i have no regrets. reflecting seems to be working on me, and somehow it pushes me on. i shall take it that it's a good sign. maybe i've been holding too tightly to so many things, i'm starting to lose the ones i cherish the most. but i'll see what i can do, maybe time is the factor =/ nevertheless, i'm staying optimistic and not letting any obstacles pull me down.

cheng's words are really heartening. i miss her so much D:

eat.pray.love

put a little more faith in life. it might turn out better than what we thought. thought, NOT EXPECT.

爱就对了

总是要流一些滚烫热泪

才能换来对爱的体会
你看 时间没有毁灭
心也没有碎
其他的就交时间解决
你当然可以重新再爱
受过伤的感动 怎样爱与被爱
多余

反正你有他的回忆
有空白回忆
离开你的 只有他 但是 爱还在
但是爱还在

听我说
爱是对的
错的是我们 还没学会爱
就急着爱人
而爱错人

可是
爱就对了
遇到下一个
爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐 都是我的

我当然经历过你现在的感受
我想那是人必经的折磨
也许每个人都该是某个人成长的助手
受一点苦痛
帮助她成熟

听我说
爱是对的
错的是我们 还没学会爱
就急着爱人
而爱错人

可是
爱就对了
遇到下一个
爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐 都是我的

别探听他的线索
别等待他会回头
爱不喜欢看人软弱
别继续把心封锁
别躲在伤心里头

爱 万一来了别错过
爱是对的
错的是我们 还没学会爱
就急着爱人
而爱错人

可是
爱就对了
遇到下一个
爱上就爱了
痛苦或快乐 都是我的

听我说
爱是对的
错的是别人自以为的爱
才会有爱人又伤害爱人
可是
爱就对了
爱了就值得
爱就能懂得
健身当快乐

the game in reality

getting inspired is good. getting ever so inspired is the best.

take a breathe, say goodnight

hello world :D great day today. hu jia hao randomly told me my oral marks today. LOL. did fine(: got back amath and physics test today, passed both! shall strive harder next time round. oh, no more next time. the next time will be eoy already! gosh, time flies! it seems like yesterday that mye just ended and now it's eoy again?! less than a week. tons of things to complete. deprived of sleep. for once, i wished i had more than 24 hours. but again, like what mr tang say, must learn to 挪出时间！i see post-its, books and notes everywhere, maybe even in my dreams. haha. well, i ought to study now! toodles O: oh! i like today's spa. paper chromatography is cool! :D

The very least you can do in your life is figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance, but live right in it, under its roof.

i'll be there

finally blogger is allowing me to post a picture. oral was fine i guess. didn't freak out. so i guess i'll do fine. according to my timetable, i should finish revision for further trigo by today. but i'm still stcuk at proving now and i'm super ultra tired. my eyes seemed to be burning too. argh. HELP. 7 more days D:

little things in life

east coast was great! was totally relaxing(: almost cycled the whole east coast in 2hrs. ALMOST. it's really a great place to relax! in fact, i managed to grasp some geog concepts there too! :D so this trip is definitely worth it. will visit east coast again after eoys. not many people there actually. guess everyone's busy preparing for exams O: the stress seemed to have fade off the moment i biked. biked aimlessly, guess it's the best way to relax. you can just go wherever you want. i see people on rollarblade falling down. but they stood up again and kept trying. attitude (y) i guess beach is the best way to motivate myself and i'll go back there after my eoys! :D

you're my shooting star

when words can't express how you feel, let music do the job. tuition's especially dry today, no idea why. scribbling geog away instead. opps. pasir ris/ east coast at 3 plus later! *prays that it won't rain* (: off to mug! toodles O:
p.s. i hate being sick. really. what's more, i'm having oral tmr. wish me luck =/

爱错就爱错

hebe: 寂寞寂寞就好
还是原来那个我 不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦

对着镜子我承诺 迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错
早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你 是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用 每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看的见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 我总会把你戒掉