there're tons of things i have to do and many other things which flow in my mind till i want go crazy already. heartbroken ._. and i don't want my friends to be sad anymore, cos when you think you are the worse in the whole wide world, actually somewhere in the world, there's someone worse than you.

it's nearly a year. and it's gonna be a year in 6 days time. to be frank, till now i don't know whether i regret it or not. all i knew was u had already made a deep deep mark in my life. taking so long to sort out my feelings wasn't an easy task to me. my heart is no longer shattered all over the place. instead, it's still trying to fix back every bits and pieces which you've broken it. all i wanted from you was to make clear things. but you never ever allowed me to have a chance in doing that. though i don't know why, but i really hope that there is a reason behind your actions. thank you, because you helped me realize what the word "independent" is after all.