putting up a brave front;

i'm pissed off. no, not that. i feel like crying. for the first time of my 14 years of life, i ever feel this way. i've put in so much effort yet everyone just don't give a damn. i know it's my job to do it. and at the end of the day, it's still my responsibility, even if it's not my fault at all. i'm really sick and tired of all these stuff. i told everyone, i wrote it black and white, i even sent out sms-es. but why is it that even after these doings, it's still like that? just because of personal problems, something can't be done within a day and a promise was given to me. i entrusted this important task to this person yet in the end, it's not done. who will be the one at fault? not that person, but me. it's still me. i know that it's part of life but why can't life be a little more fair? is it so difficult? i really don't know how long i can hold this thing up before i burst out crying and washing my hands off everything. i'm sick of this. and i really mean it.