you.

i never expect myself to be writing this but somehow, here i am, writing this to you.


we have been through ups and downs. i thought that since we've come this far, we had learn how to accept  and be there for each other. whenever we're out there tgt, just the two of us, or just simply on the phone, have you realized that you're the one talking most of the time, and all that talk only revolve around one person? you never gave me a chance to talk and what's more, that one person makes me feel uncomfortable. i don't say it doesn't mean i don't feel it or like it. you used to look for me once in a while just to catch up with our lives. but i guess there's no such thing anymore. we used to gossip and talk almost every single day and look, do we even talk once a week? it's like our distance is drifting further anf further apart. you are always the first i look for whenever i've got good or bad news. i used to cry to you on the phone and i can look for you any single time. but i'm afraid to approach you now. i'm using the word afraid. whenever i look into your eyes now, it seems like i don't understand or know you at all. it all seems so.. weird i guess. it's no longer the same. is it just that we're both of different classes now or that both of us have changed so much, so much that we both don't know what's going through each other's mind? you stood such an important place in my heart, but what am i to you? just another friend? i know i shouldn't be expecting but i can't help to, because you are that important to me. i'm waiting, but i don't know how long i'll be standing here waiting for you to realize how far we've become. maybe by the time you realize, it might be already too late and that i've turned my back and never look back.