I HATE YOU I HATE YOUUUU!!

I HATE YOU!

why are there so many things that we didn't want and expected in life come along the way? i don't understand what my heart is thinking and how to differentiate them from my mind tons of homwork are piling up my study table yet many things have happen lately that affected my mood, nope, everyboday's mood. i don't know how i'm going to survive through this but i'm going crazy soon. i'm completely emotionless and idk how to react totally everything in my life is pissing me off completely and i found no joy in anything even kinderjoys can't make me happy nowand i'm broke buying so many of them-.- everything sucks i had to miss sports day thanks to guzheng i would rather be in the stadium cheering for my fellow cuda runners rather than sitting there and having that intensive trainingand by demanding this, demanding that to be done does that help lift up our spirits? NOPE. NOT AT ALL. what do you treat us as? as clowns? as idiots? as morons? well, you know that will NEVER be true. we carried out the instructions because we HAD TO. NOT WE WANT TO. by saying people stupid, do you even have the right to say that? WAY NO! A BIG FAT NO! and by critizising us, you are just making us hate you let me tell you, EVEN THE PROFESSIONALS DON'T DO WHAT YOU WANT US TO DO! you are just wasting our time and you may not know this. your words fucking hurts people's feelings and you're just sour-ing them not a single encouragement this is the time where WE need your support but you are just doing to opposite what you are doing makes us want to rebel and hating you to the core. look, you suck and everyone agreed on that you only know how to talk and don't know how to do you will never understand how much pressure we're in, you don't know the state we are in, you expected everything perfect but you just stand there and do nothing but critizise critizise critizisei feel like crying whenever i'm thinking of the state we are in now let me repeat THOSE WORDS AREN'T ENCOURAGING. THEY ARE FUCKINGLY HURTING i hate the state we are in now. let's hope we can patch up this big hole.