i'm depressed and very very disappointed

ok, i'm disappointed
i've thought about what regina and xi nan said these few days.
and after reading guzheng peeps' blog posts, i've concluded this
what we lack is not only mo qi, nt only trust but also morale
i admitted i did some wrong things during practices like texting and stuff and i'm sorry, esp to cris and leslie.
you guys are trying to lead us ahead, trying hard to push us and we're still not trying our best.
yes, ther's stress from school work, tests, and lots of other things but guzheng is equally important as well
let's not go to syf just for the sake of it
let's not just improve becos tsb wants us to
let's have passion and improve because we want to
i believe that by putting one's heart into something will make it perfect
let's use the c division vball boys as example
this is what a fellow vball guy tell me:
its all about morale in a team
thats why sometimes we vball can lose
a little bit off, then morale low
lead to losing
we beat VS a close 3-2 is cos
suddenly hk can "thunder"
then evryone morale up
then we pull VS morale down
in the end we won
cos losing 1 or 2 sets doesnt mena you win or lose
you must go all the way
like you all
being down now doesnt mean you guys will be lousy
you all can pick yourselves up and go for the all
since you all have the skills
let's learn from them ok?
i know i have no rights to tell seniors all these
but i feel that we need the morale which is not there yet
i believe all of us have the skill to play well individually
but now, it's the team spirit that it not there yet
and we need that in order to clinch the gold
the tension is building up and so is the pressure.
yes, there is improvement but i believe that tsb expects more from us
let's show him that we can do it
that we can clinch gold or even gwh
come on xinmin guzheng ensemble
let's not be weak
LETS BE STRONG
we cannot afford to rest any longer
XMS GZ TUAN, JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!

credits really have to go to justin and enreka(: thanks for helping me pick myself up whenever i fell down. and justin, thanks so much for those words. they were indeed encouraging. enreka, thank you so much so much. 10000000000000 thanks is not enough.