i mind it alot. i really do. but even if i say so, what will it change? it's there, it's the truth no matter how many times i rub my eyes. probably you're the one that didn't change. maybe it's just me. pushing away the thinking, pushing away the feelings, it doesn't seem to work. i want to forget i've once know you for who you are, but i can't bring myself to do that. no matter how hard i try, it's still there. day after day, months after months, years after years. maybe it's me that's being foolish here. maybe i'm the one who started all these. maybe i'm the one that went overboard. tiredness and confusion took over me. and maybe, i deserve all these.