enough

i never thought we would end up like this, this state lying in front of my eyes today. i never knew how much you've changed, or i've changed if not for the fact i'm facing today. i never knew that even you would do this to me. i thought you were different from others, but i guess i've made a wrong judgement. maybe, i'm being over-sensitive. somehow, i'm born with it, i can't get rid of that gene somehow. i would not give a single shit to others who treat me like you do, because i was thinking you would be with me. but i guess you've chosen to abandon me. i had been trying to mend this friendship, yet you're just pushing me away. i had come to a point where i thought, right, it takes two hands to clap. so why should i work so hard for this friendship which is fuckingly meaningless to you? you know what i'm most afraid of, yet you still chose to bring me to that fear. i told myself you're not worth my tears, my thoughts. but somehow, my tears had prove me wrong. i did everything i can, and now i'm lost. i guess it's not worthwhile to try and hold on anymore, because i know all i would be getting from you is just rejection and hurt. enough. i'm leaving because i know i've tried hard enough. thank you for teaching me that not everyone is trustworthy in this world. thank you for all the hurt in which you've given me, because you've unknowningly made me a stronger and more resistant person by treating me like shit. one day, i'll prove to you and i'll show you what i will become, which is beyond your imagination. i've learnt, indifference.