a push over the wall

been thinking a lot recently. i guess you know it. just probably, you don't want to make things awkward and you pretended that you didn't know. maybe i'm being paranoid, but somehow, that's my instinct. i tried imagining life without you, my lack of courage pulled me back. no doubt, i'm hesitant. i no longer want my happiness to be dependent on one person, in which that is you. i don't want you to be the difference that made my mood change totally for the rest of the day. i'm tired of this rollar coaster. but how exactly, am i going to press the stop button? unless, you made me see something worth holding on. show it, tell me, prove it.