one year makes a big difference in life. i thought i've forgotten about it, but it turns out that i didn't. i thought that i was strong, but it turned out that i'm not strong enough, and i never knew i was that frail. but one thing i knew was that i've became stronger during this period of time. i told myself never to cry for you anymore but the tears of mine can't control them today after hearing those words. and that was also when i found out i haven't let go fully. i know i have to face the world and sonner or later, i'll still know. i don't understand you anymore, and i feel i don't have to. at least the crying out makes me feel so much better. though one day i'l let go, but the scar is always there for the rest of my life...